Step Back

I dont know if I'm doing the right thing. Perhaps my pace was a bit too fast for the past one year. I took a step back, and let the world revolve around me. But why I feel some sorta pain drilling inside?

Ya Allah, please make me stronger to face tomorrow and guide me all the way. Aamiin...

Whammy Monday

1. I woke up at 7.55 am this morning and in to be in office at 8.30am!
2. My phone got barred.
3. My tank almost out of gas.
4. The Unser in front of me giler slow.
5. The whole day had post-aching body due to Saturday's training.
6. Whole day being extremely sleepy.
7. Had to wait more than an hour after my working hour just to hv discussion wit my supervisor.
8. I hv not realized that my dearest white gold bracelet putus since morning, lucky broke at home.

Phew...

This is why I prefer to watch movie... ALONE.

People found it bizzare when i told them that I prefer to go for movie alone. They said they rather go with friends or stay at home than watching alone. But, ada aku kisah ke? Sukati aku la kan?

Well, it took me quite a rage to start up with this post. To express my apoplexy into writings will not bring any justice, but its better than having it like a cancer inside. It is indeed a CANCER.

Strike 1
Once upon a time - more or like when I was 18, I have a pet brother named Alif. You know how back in the days, young people fond to have pet brother/sister... and I wasn't exceptional. We were working together in a one of the popular fastfood chain outlet. At that time, I remember we were planning to watch Van Helsing and I was looking forward for that. I waited patiently until the movie release. And, the day that I asked 'Abg Alif, hari apa nak tengok Van Helsing?' and he answered 'Alamak, abg Alif da tengok dengan member semalam la'. Apparently I did not watch Van Helsing thaty year, not even the next year. It took me after 6 years to gain some guts to watch that movie. That is so NOT cool.

Strike 2
Somewhere last year - supposedly I go watch some movie with my former significant other which I retardly unable to remember the title now. He end up canceling the plan that day since he got something else came up. So, me and my sister ended up watching Lagenda Budak Setan. True enough, as soon as I purchased the movie tickets over the counter, I bumped into him... with other woman. Cool ay? That is so NOT cool.

Strike 3
Somewhat few hours ago, I texted a friend of mine to reconfirm on X-Men: First Class movie on this coming Tuesday. I can't express how I drowned in excite and glee as I had always, always been a big fan of X-Men. As I was checking up my Bread Pudding in the oven, I received a reply which cool enough to turned me pale.

"Haha, I skunk kat KLCC... ngan cousin I. Maraton tgk X-Men.. pasni nak tgk pirates plak. Hoho
Ala, nak kluar ni pun tak plan pun.. cousin i ajak tadi.. tadi kan I g umah toksu.. tapi i no hal klu nak tgk hari selasa ni lagi..sbb cite xmen best. Ok. =)"

With a blink of an eye, its like a grenade that had just been tossed to kill the excitement. And oh no, its dead. (Call the paramedic! *neno neno neno neno*) This is cool giler kan? This is like.. uberly cool. This is so cool like... beyond coolness of a cool! Cool!

And as in baseball... after strike 3, YOU'RE OUT!

p.s: If I knew this were coming, I would have include X-Men in my movie marathon with my sister last Saturday. But I decided not to because I thought I have already planned to watch them with another person. Urgh! Could I be more idiot than that? Sadistically, YES.

Career Progression

An sms broke the silence of a Monday evening:

Hi Lydia, this is XXX... Please come at 8.45am shift tomorrow.

I was surprised that the sms is actually from AMEX team manager instead of my own manager. Pre-occupied, I just replied with 'noted' and get over with my house work. Hours past, when I finally calm down - suddenly it make a sense... why on earth AMEX team manager sent me a message? I tried to get intouch with my supervisors and manager - none responded. So I sleep with a nerve as stiff as it had just been pump up a botox.

The next morning, I'd been called by XXX and to my surprise, I'd been handpicked to join the Amex Team. After the meeting, I was rushed to the training room and so the training begun.

Let me tell you bit bout my work. I'd been servicing Credit Card support for the past 2.5 years now. I'd been a solid team player and personally, I keep myself at par interms of quality. But what sadden me, is how my superior did not inform me on the immediate transfer. Our job scope is solely base on communication, but what I learnt from this incident - a perfect communication abort via employer-employee. Isn't my respective manager supposed to discuss about this first with me? Instead, I got to know about this from the other department's management. Bizzare ay?

Feeling done. It took me few seconds before I could say yes to the offer. I've made up my mind, I have to move out from my comfort zone and accept the challenge - though with a numb emotion. I have to say, this a very inappropriate departure for me. However, I'll take it as a new begining, in a new department, new team mates, new products and a BIGGER opportunity. May I be a better person with a better perspective through out the new pursuit.

To answer those ridiculous queries on my transfer:

No, I was not forced to join AMEX. I chose to agree on the offer and this is my career progression.

When The Love Falls

I was captivated by Jo Ann's video via facebook when she played the song on piano and at my first glance, this song is b-e-a-u-t-i-f-u-l. It's beautiful enough to left me on a blank stare. So I rushed myself to youtube to find the original version by Yiruma (you may refer to the song on sidebar). Enthusiast enough, I started to picking up the scores and I believe it will be flawless in no time!

It is not plain enthusiast which makes me wanted to learn the song. I was driven by the fact this song stop the time. I had been scanning songs relentlessly after another for the past few weeks that reflect the emotion which lingers in my soul. This is the right song, at the right time. Right enough, it brought me to tears.

I can't lie to my heart. And  certainly I can't lie to you. I wish I could put a stop now. But if I could finally put a stop to that, I know it is gonna be a painful one for me. So, let be it, if that makes you a happier man.

The Velvet is RED.

I found my recent muse on baking lately - it is the Red Velvet Cake. The first time I tasted was in Coffee Bean for lunch - the taste doesnt linger as it supposed to and yet till now I cant even remember how it taste. The next one is in Pavilion, which I think it is ok and I thought there is nothing much special for a red sponge cake with a cream cheese frosting. People said third time is a charm, I had my third red velvet in KLCC and that is the time it triggers my taste bud! (no, it is not just because I had a fabulous day on that day - Idi, I know u'll end up reading this, haha) So ever since that I had a thing with this Red Velvet Cakes and I always wanted to make one.

So recently, since there is approx 100gm of cream cheese left over from Idi's cheese cake and I have to use it fast before it expires, I decided to try and error for Red Velvet Cake and there are tons and tons of recipes in the internet (it is the matter of wether it suits your taste bud or it matches with the ingredients that you have in the kitchen)! Thank you GOOGLE~! The outcome were so good which I have to make them in 2 days straight!

Day 1. Red Velvet Cupcake - first attempt ever - real awesome! 

Day 2. The 8 inch Red Velvet Cake - taste awesome but I overpowered the cocoa powder.

Due to my muse in baking, some people suggest me to open a bakery. Hurm, are you seriously? I dont think bakery do well with me, but I was thinking more to cafe or patisserie where people can hang out and be more leisure with it - that is real fun! *mama, jom kita bukak cafe nak?*

A Price of an Appreciation

Recently I'd been down under the weather. No, this is not in regards to the heat wave that contribute to my nose bleed. I dont know, much more prone to feel under appreciated.

I am personally have no big fuss on this. And also personally, it is in my nature to love make everyone happy. In return, I hope people will do the same to me. Or to at least, jaga hati I la... itu pun dah memadai.

This is a short post, at least I'd give my point.

Perisa blueberry, my favourite~!

Day past by, and its been months since the last I watched Hantu Kak Limah, apparently above quote still linger in my head. Blame it on Usop. haha.

Significantly with the tittle, for those who might know me well - I do get orders occasionally for cheesecakes. This month alone, I've made 6 cheesecakes which I swear I do not wish to neither see nor to taste anymore cheesecake this month (ok, now is already at the end of April and May is not counted. teehee) Not to proclaimed neither to brag, I never ever thought that my cheesecakes are gonna be a hit. Thanx to online recipes, go internet!

I had a last minute order for 2 cheesecakes and the due is on Friday. So after work yesterday, I took a little ride to my faithful favourite bakery supply in Shah Alam. And I confirmed with my client for the flavour and she agreed on 2 blueberry cheesecakes. (yes! if she picks other flavours I might need to take a little tour to Subang Jaya to get the toppings).

So this morning, I woke up feeling gleefully as I wanna settle all my banking errands before I off to work, which after breakfast I came to realize 'bummer, I have 2 more cheesecakes pending'. Switching my gear, I decided to postponed my banking errands and march myself to the kitchen.

After few interuptions by my neighbor (I have to say, wrong timing and me in wrong mood to be disturbed), as I picking up my mood to stay optimistic thru the day - I received a text message from my client:

Hi, I would like to change my order to 1 blueberry cheesecake and 1 strawberry cheesecake. Please.

And I received that message at almost 12noon, the cake is not done and I have to be in office by 1.30pm which the next time I am gonna be home is midnight. Trust me, I was screaming my lungs out - I had a major blow out. I mean, enough u had done a last minute order and now u want to switch flavours in like super last minute? Heck no! You thing I got no other things to do, is it? You think I got so much leisure time to go to Subang is it? That is why I confirmed with you on the flavour the day before. Have to remember, yours truely have a fulltime job, ok. I seriously have issues with people who make fun of my little life. So, as hard as it feels for me - I have to be firm, so big NO.

Thru out the hodgepodge, my mom offered that she could fetch the strawberry toppings later afternoon. To hear that makes me feel such a bless. My mom is such an angel, a life and mood saver. She rocks! And there goes two cans of strawberry toppings blanketting my New York Cheesecakes and a can of blueberry to cover the smaller one.

It was a nerve-wrecking day. No more last minute order please!

Put My Things Down, Flip It and Reverse It

For the past few months had been quite a chaotic ride. Loads of cleaning - done. Loads of moving - done. Loads of refurbishing - done. Loads throwing stuff out - done. It has been months since my house gone under renovation and it feels like forever. The due date is way beyond past and we're expecting it to be end at least... in 2 weeks from now. But hey, I guess they are doing quite a good job - though we have to put an extra effort to keep on monitoring their finishing works. Tips on revamping house: always, (and I mean it) always pay extra attention to the details. (to avoid situation "lain yang kita suruh, lain yang contractors buat")

As tremendous of digging work done thru the old stuffs (this is what I like bout moving/major renovating house), my mom stumbled into some old photos that been kept in the drawer for ages and also survived flash flood in 2006.

Not so surprise, I always been looking so evil even though at young age. Haha

Financially wise had been quite bumpy road for the past few months too. Blame me on forgetting to put aside some cash for roadtax and car insurance. Shish. In result, a very sadistic financial status been frigging around me like no ones business. Amazing that I survived without doing any extra personal loans from my peers. I guess if you have a faith in yourself and keep yourself grounded, God will always guide you regardless thru thick and thin. Alhamdulillah... things had been not so bad at all.

As my age turns 25 earlier this month, I'd been getting more and more wedding invitations than ever! Back then I always thought that wedding invitations are for grown ups. So, I presume that I am a grown up now, and my friends are all getting married at this age - which leaves me to figure what hold for me in future. I will never know. But, I never really like being a grown up, too much issues. I still wanna stay in my la-la-land and go heck with the world. Yeah, sounded kinda selfish there, wasn't I? Someone did said to me 'be mature when u needed to - such as sitting for exams or getting married/solemnize, other than that maturity is unnecessary". Sounds good to me though. =)

Deactivating My Facebook

My sudden decision on temporarily deactivating my facebook creates quite a chaos to my peers and family. Loads of questions arise from my action: what? why? when? who?!

Logically, I need to keep myself away for awhile from my facebook. It wasnt the facebook, it's just an inner conflict crumbling inside of me. Thus, I need a bit of time for myself, so I can keep my mind straight.

Another Window

I guess this will be the 3rd blog I ever have. The first one will always be the ever famous Friendster blog, unfortunately they have revamped the Friendster thus the blog is gone.

The 2nd will be under different email, not-so-fortunate that my email been hack thus I couldnt access to the email anymore.

So, this is the third one.. still opening the same window.

New blog, new beginning.